I've gained 35 pounds after losing 169 pounds

[housewifeheather]

True Story!!! Now some are saying, BIG DEAL!!! You've still lost 123 pounds. True!! And some are saying, Uh Oh, is she on her way to gaining it all back? *one is old friend fat depressed me that is scared deep inside* But you know what *healthy housewife* says? (Don't tell me you don't have many versions of you not hiding inside - lol) She says never give up doing what it takes to be healthy! True, I've gained all this in just 6 months time but I'm also working on me. It's the me that I should love no matter what I look like. After all looks fade and if I get this down early enough I'll only have many fantastic years for a fun happy life! I lost this weight the best way one can...Praying *thank you God!* and diet/exercise. Now the hardest part is of this course is keeping it off which is a day by day battle. New things have come up in life to bring on a busy life which I'm not used to. More things in life bring on stress plus less sleep which equals eating more to fuel this tired women and eating fast food because I'm to tired to cook. If Jerod can get healthy on a fast food diet then I can find a way too. I'm a fighter and along the way I'm learning to love and understand me better. I'm learning to take the time to still feel pretty no matter what fat depressed me says in the morning. It can take a stern talk to fix my hair and out of the sweats. I'm also learning to work in exercise again because I need it. What better way for me to get rid of stress then by walking it off? I love my pedometer! It tells me me that I need a walk or that it's time for rest. Without 12,000 plus steps I feel rundown and unhealthy. I also love to weight train. Seeing my muscles pop in the mirror makes me feel strong. That feeling should be one we all strive for in life. What a better way to feel strong then by after a busy day not sitting down to relax but getting on the treadmill that faces a TV and has a laptop set up on it for some surfing? If I have to get fast food I can choose wisely for all of us and then use my spare moments for that walking. What a good example it will be for that old friend that is inside me wanting me to melt into the couch. What a good example for my kids.

I'm sounding strong but I'm also working on my feelings for this Monday when I'll see my Grandma after many months. She fights this weight battle better then I and therefore doesn't understand this strong addiction I have with eating until I pop. 5'5" she is and never seen her more then 130 pounds. She is beautiful! Grandma was very proud of me that I lost all this weight but whenever I gain some she also has things to say. I need to bring healthy housewife with me to keep me company with positive things to say inside while remaining respectful. She is older and may have wise things to say, which I'll be on the lookout for, but also can't possibly understand what it's like to be 300 pounds when she tells me to just lose weight.

Do you know I hear friends say, "Those people should just lose weight! Stop eating so much! They can do it they just don't want to." Are you kidding I say? They don't want to have breathing problems and be uncomfortable sitting, standing, walking, sleeping..." It's an addiction one without the problem shouldn't judge. It seems so acceptable to judge a fat person. Judge anyone else and your just plain prejudice.

So, this day God has granted me victory over putting junk in my body that drains me. I'm a stronger warrior today with many weapons gained to fight another day.

[housewifeheather]

Thank you Kelly Jean!! I went ahead and joined curves yesterday. I recommend this support team to anyone. They track your progress which helps. It was a fantastic workout.

[Kelly Jean]

I still can't believe that you lost 169 pounds. That is a major accomplishment! But yes, having yo-yo'd back and forth myself a lot over the years there is nothing more depressing to me that having to re-lose what I have lost.
I am glad that you are reaching out and writing about it. I have gained some weight back after losing a lot this year. This has reminded me that exercise is really one of the things that has gotten cut short in my life due to other conflicts and stresses taking over. Thanks sharing, it is always nice to remember that we are not alone in this battle.

[housewifeheather]

Than you Mary!!!

[Mary]

You are so right. Folks who have never battled with weight just dont get it. Once you have gained weight it takes very little more to maintain it. A person weighing 300lbs does not need to eat much more then a person weighing 150lb to maintain that weight.
Fast food can be a major stumbling block. I have made sure that I have sliced veggies and fruit available at all times. I can just nosh when ever. I sometimes have to resort to buying the pre sliced to ensure that I have it available. At work I have a small G. Foreman grill where I can have a chicken breast in 6 minutes. But the biggest burden I find is trying to move. I come home too tired for anything else then melting into a couch. Forget regular exercize, I park as far as I can from doors. I do not use the switchboard at work.... I walk to each workstation to deliver phone messages. You will do it because you are determined. good luck.